Edward and Bella: A lifetime7

Edward and Bella: A lifetime7

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Recap:

“EDWARD! STOP YOU’RE HURTING ME!”

Edward instantly froze. I can’t believe I had said what I did, but it was the only way…
Once I said it I regretted it. My poor Edward; I probably just crushed him (psychologically speaking that is). He looked at me square in the eye.

“W-what?” he stuttered, the pain in his voice was unbearable for me to hear. He was off of me in a flash, I didn’t know where he went, but I could still here his words lingering in the air, “I’m sorry…”

As if I wasn’t heartbroken enough already. Why was I such a terrible person?! To make matters worse, he knew this was going to happen. When I first tried to do it he stopped me saying it was to dangerous, that he could crush me if he got to ‘caught up in the moment’. (A/N for any of you who are wondering, Edward put on his clothes as he left the room. He is not strutting around in the nude.)

I was so close to crying. Heck, I could flat out ball my eyes out right about now if I wanted to. I decided however, that I shouldn’t cry. If Edward heard me he would probably feel even worse for making me cry, and find some way to blame this all on him.

It wasn’t his fault; I didn’t blame him in the least. If it was anybody’s fault it was mine. How stupid could I be? Of course I totally trust Edward in every way possible. He just had a simple little slip-up, right? Suddenly I was starting to have second thoughts. Not on my marriage to Edward, never! No, but about him turning me into a vampire. If he loses control now who knows what could happen when he tastes my blood.

I love him with all of my heart, no more than that. I love him body, mind, and soul- with all of my existence. I would do anything he said; I’d poke a rabid dog with a stick if he thought it would be for the better. So, what am I so worried about?

Nothing.

Exactly, I’m freaking out about nothing. But, now I feel terrible about having second thoughts about Edward! Can’t I do anything right!? I put it out of my mind and decided it didn’t matter. I had had my little epiphany, and I know with all of my heart that I love and trust Edward. There’s nothing to worry about…. yeah.

I was suddenly pulled out of my thoughts, by a slight banging noise. I turned my head around searching for the source as the banging became increasingly louder.

Realizing that the noise wasn’t coming from the room I figured I should check the outside hall. Not wanting to blind anybody at the sight of my body, I put on some sweats I had thought to bring with me.
When I opened the door I gasped. There was Edward sitting in the hall in his plaid pajama pants, banging his head against the wall, mumbling a few choice words.

“Edward, darling, you know if you keep doing that your going to leave a dent in the wall.” I softly murmured, smiling the softest smile I could ever smile.

“Bella?” He croaked, if he could cry I’m sure his face would be soaked with tears.

“Yes, sweetheart, I’m here.” I sat down next to him and rested my head on his shoulder.

“How can you still be here? Don’t you hate me? I’m so, so sorry for what I did. I didn’t mean it, but I would completely understand if you hate me. I can’t believe I lost control like that. I thought I could do this…” he looked down, ashamed of himself.

“EDWARD ANTHONY CULLEN!!” I screamed at the top of my lungs. How could he possibly think I would hate him? I love him to death. (if that was a vampire/death pun there it was totally unintentional) “I love you body, mind, and soul! How could you even think that!? Sure, you made a mistake, but we all do. You didn’t mean to hurt me. I don’t blame you for anything. I love you so much, and I want to try again… but when I’m less breakable. Do you understand me, darling?” He just nodded in return. After that I couldn’t help myself, I planted my mouth firmly on his and kissed him with passion and love.

Very abruptly, Edward stood up and carried me into the bedroom, and just laid me under the covers. I shifted around looking for a good spot to get comfortable in then patted the area next to me for him to join me. He quickly obliged, and as soon as he was under the covers, with me in his arms, I drifted off into sleep.

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I woke up the next morning with a small bit of pressure on my nose.

“Morning, love,” he whispered. I opened my eyes and found his face only centimeters away.

“Hi,” was my brilliant response back. He chuckled lightly, and pulled me out of bed.

“Go get changed, Bella, we’re going out today. I thought you might want to see some of the sights, and maybe go a tiny bit shopping at the little places here,” he smoothly said as he got changed. All the while I just stared at him wide eyed, like he was a total idiot. He was about to say something, but I cut him off.

“Edward? I don’t exactly know how to say this, but you do realize that if you go out into the sun you sparkle, right? I mean if we go to public places people might just think I stuck you in a tub of glue, then rolled you in glitter. And if they don’t do that they might just call Area 51 saying that there is a guy here sparkling in the sunlight.”
It took him about ten seconds of holding in his laughter before he couldn’t contain it anymore. He was rolling on the ground for twenty minutes until he started to calm down. I figured it might take awhile, so I might as well go get dressed. When I came back he was taking deep breaths trying to gain his composure back.

“Are you done now”

“Yes, I am, love. I’m sorry,” he said, embracing me in his arms. “There will be rain clouds surrounding the island this morning, until it rain heavily this afternoon. So I figured that I would be able to go outside, and show off my new wife.” I couldn’t help but giggle when he called me his wife. (I don’t know if that actually ever happens in Hawaii, but just go along with it )

“Well why didn’t you say that in the first place?” I asked, smacking his chest. “I say we go shopping first, and get the torturous chore out of the way, and then we can see the island.”

“Sounds great, love,” he replied, and kissed my forehead.

When I came out of the bathroom he wasn’t there. Oh, no. He better not be smacking his head against the wall… again. I told him it wasn’t his fault! I hate it when he blames himself for everything. Most of the time when things happen to me its not even his fault!

I opened my mouth, ready to yell his name, when a car horn echoed though out the house. Of course! Stupid, stupid, stupid! Why didn’t I even try to look for him. I really am an idiot sometimes. I walked outside to see Edward waiting in the car with my door opened. My human velocity wasn’t fast enough for him because he came and put me in the car, in a second.

“So where are these stores,” I said, sneering the word store.

Edward chuckled at my reluctance, “Not to far away; it won’t take to long to get there. Ten minutes tops… maybe five with my driving.” He smiled the crooked grin that melted my heart.

“‘Kay,” was all I managed to get out.

Edward was right, as usual, it did only take us five minutes to get us to the cutest little market you’ve ever seen. And that’s a lot coming from me, considering I hate shopping. I immediately started pulling Edward along, jumping from stand to stand. I didn’t really mind for once that Edward bought me things. I know it’s totally out of character for me, but we are married now. What’s his is now mine… right? I didn’t really care I just wanted those tops, and nonsense.

I was going crazy. i was buying things left and right, soon even with Edwards super strength he won’t be able to carry my bags. Then I froze. Oh my gosh… I’m turning into Alice. I turned around and looked at Edward. As much as I love Alice, I didn’t want to be like her when it came to shopping.

“Edward! Put those bags down right now!”

“What? Why, love? What’s wrong?” He took my shoulders in, and hugged me.

“I’m turning into Alice!”

“Love, don’t feel like that. You know I love buying you things, and this is probably a one time deal. When we get back home you most likely won’t let me buy you anything. Its perfectly fine. For once, let your inner Alice reign.” At that I had to laugh. He was right I won’t let him buy me anything after this, and I’m actually having a little bit of fun shopping right now.

“All right fine. Alice is going to be sad she missed this,” I mumbled.

He picked the bags back up, and we continued on. We stopped at one little jewelry stand, and a girl no older than us started check Edward out. I leaned my head against Edward’s chest, while he put his arm low around my waist. When I looked back over she looked as determined as ever to get him away from me.

Edward froze. He turned me around, and gave me a kiss that you only see in the movies. When he broke off I was shocked. He looked up over at the girl, and frowned.

“I'm sorry, love, I shouldn't have done that. She's plotting to kill you now.”

“Well, let’s walk away before she gets the chance,” I murmured into his ear. He agreed, and we walked off hoping she wouldn’t follow. After a few more little stores I realized Edward wasn’t by my side anymore. I turned around, and what I saw broke my heart.